Update

just under a month has gone by and as usual gotten lazy once again to do any more posting..

STarted uni about 3 weeks ago and my final year has been good . .. having an escort to every class on my first week was great thanks!! you know who you are!!...

but i've made friends with loads of people in my new class which is great new people, new class mates which isn't always a bad thing huh??... .

Went out to two chinese parties in the mean time aswell and also randommly out to syndicate because an old friend from ireland had came over to bristol which was fun as always ^^ lol.. .

BUT i feel like i havn't been doing any work at all so starting from today time to turn up the work machine and start getting loads more work done!!...

keep on gettin pissed off at silly things as well.. which doesn't help the situation with trying to think of work and balance the rest of my life out..

interesting weekend..

lack of posts the last few weeks is due to moving and lack on internet access? my phones got internet but ahh its just to slow and anyoing..

but moved into a new place? kind of anyway. . but i just seem to be away from home so much more since i've gotten to know my girlfriend more and more...

this weekend was my birthday and i had a great time went to eat in this nice itailan resturant with really greeen chairs.. and alot of my friends attended it so it was a brilliant time to catch up, started to miss my home and family more recently so i can't wait to go back home in another week or so and also grab some birthday presents of the parentals..

things that have been going on recently.. . hetic work life with deadlines and overtime going crazy even though i don't get paid for it?!!

but good expereince and stuff to write onto my cv as awlays ^^

back to brirthday stuffs got realli good gifts from all my friends and family thanks to them all for being so thoughtful!! turned 21 now. . .starting to feel semi adult . ..

i'll try to keep posting more regularly as always but hope alls well and this diary thing is relaly hard to keep up with..

ohh yeah Have i said i've gotten a new phone? its soo cool its a HTC hero check it out if you wanna get a new phone and not jump onto the iphone band wagon hahaa

Should I Be Angry?

The people closest to you are the ones that can possibly hurt you the most right?. ..

I'm not sure if I should be angry with them for doing it? or for not telling me that it was happening?.. but I know how I feel when she had lied about it?... but at least I was told the truth rite?..

Things in life will fly by and I know it won't feel as bad as it does right now.. I just hope that this feeling doesn't come back again because I'm not sure if Im strong enough to keep on taking these, without ever having the feeling that the good times don't out weigh the bad?..

Update

I nearli wanted to give up on posting but i think i'll restart my blog again. ..

been away for about a month and now back at work and i guess i'll start posting up memories on my summer holiday. ..

spent just under a month in Hong Kong and Thailand and it was a great trip. ..

Hong Kong was a different to my first time there because i spent most of my time with my Girl friend and didn't really chill out with my friends that I had flown there with.. .

most of the time i just did the regular hong kokng things and went to different areas. . the main trip i'll talk about is 6/20 which was the 1st anniversary with my girl friend and i had brought her a flower and she took me to stanley which has a great market and a beautful beach. . alittle saltty but still nice. ..

One of the most random things that had happend was when we were huggin on the beach another random couple took photos of us?? really werid situation and they ended up sending the photos they took to my girlfriend as when we were leaving they stopped us and said that they had taken the photos and asked if we wanted them?... i'll post the photo up later on but it was a werid experience..

other days in hong kong me and her just spent alot more time getting to know each other and showing me in different areas of Hong Kong.. . getting shown around with a native is always the best you get a much better view on life there and see little "niche" areas of the city that most tourists wouldn't ever see.

alot of thigns happed in hong kong that made me feel both superly happy and also really pissed? waitin was one of them things soo maybe in my next post i'll talk about the things that made me both unhappi and happy? or i'll just move onto the Thailand trip that was sureal that i'm not sure if i should even post 100% of what had happended. . . because i've tired to erase some of the memories from my mind. . . but yeah interested in knowing???.. . one of the tag lines for the Thailand trip was "wats the worse that could happen". . haha.. .

changs Bday

Well havn't posted in awhile thought it was top up time!!.. .

onli things i can remember is recently doing ntohing alot. . . haha

helped me friend miin move into her new place which is soo nice i wish i could experience living somwhere like that some time in my life. . .

but yes today went to my friends Bday part in weston supermare and had a really relaxing and nice BBq by the beach and it was a great time to have fun and relax with my friends before everyone makes there own way after the final year of university. . feels like life won't ever be that great again? like the end of an era. . .

and been speaking to my girl friend on the internet alot as usual while shes in hong kong and stuff. . .and every time i get ready to talk to her i'm happi but its just when i start talking things just don't seem to make me happy?. . .

is it me ? is it her ? is the stuff were talking about? i'm just not really sure wats wrong . . . . . .

maybe not just an end of a era with my friends?.. i'm probly just over thinking the small things in life and shud focus on others. .

hopfully it'll sort itself out later on when i see her in hong kong? another 2 days left before i fly away. . . . how times flies. . i'll try to keep updated and stuff but not making any promises.s..

Update

Havn't had a new post in here in a lonnng time. . i can't even remember wat i have been doing with my days..

10 days until i go to hong kong!! is the main thing in my life at the moment and i also had a scare of losing my MP3 player just before my long journey there but thankfully i found the thing today !! YAY for me..



spent the last few days chilling out with my friends just doing random party things and relaxing around the place. ..



.. . . Went to my uni's drink the bar dry event where drinks are really cheap and we all jsut relaxed chatting and drinking, after that it was my friend Miins Birthday party so we all went out clubbing which was surprisingly fun and it was a C02 night so they were firing the stuff into the crowd and the music was puming which was fun and really freshing!! because it was soo warm at the party. . . My friend Essex also got completed wasted and was dancing like a mad man who's drink had got spiked or somthing. . .



the saturday (essex had ended up sleeping over at my place don't ask why) i remmeber speaking to my girl friend over skype which was really good becuase i had been missing her soo much i didn't know wat was wrong with me . . and we got a chance to catch up and talk about things after that we watching the most jumpy film ever called "Drag me to Hell" it was just one of the most random films i've seen in a long time but interesting enough becuase it was soo memorable? hahaa (not going to watch that again ever!)

Sunday went shopping into town around 12 and brought my friend wilson his #Bday gift which was a MJ top with 23 on it (the age he was turning) which was a nice coincedence. had dinner in TGI's for the Birthday boy and ended up going out for another drink with the guys for his birthday . . funnly Wilson got completly wasted and at one point in the night was crying as he didn't want to drink anymore but i had to leave early as today i have work!!

Today in the office... had a nice team meeting with the team and gettin really excited the trip to Hong Kong, today is the last working week for me so i'm completly relaxed and can't wait for Friday to come, later today nite have a BBQ with the same bunch of friends or go out to dinner in this chinese resturant in Bristol called "Mayflower" as i havn't seen my old course mates in such a long time as a catch up session where i mite be able to see the girl that i used to a thing with ..

I think thats a pretty good summary of what has been going on with my in the last few days . .. having this blog is really helping me to remember more things that I do. . .

Happy MOndya first weeking day in the week and the longest amount of time away from the weekend startin again >.< Grr...

lesson for this week.. always remember to look around ur car if u lost somthing because it may just be in there!!.. .

Two weeks long??

Took my gfriend to the coach station yesterday and now shes gone was alittle sad, but it didn't feel like shes gone. . gave her a nice big hug and then said bye to her. . after walking away from the coach i noticed that she'd been holding my wallet so i rushed back to pick it up silly me >.< ruined the nice byeness of the situation hahaha. . .

Afterwards met up with the guys playd a few games and chilling at there place and watched terminator. .. but the whole time iwas doing this stuff i was really missing her. .. tried to ring her later on before her flight and her phone was always busy and before she flew off she rang me just to say bye . . .

and i couldn't resist myself from asking her who she was on the phone to the whole time?.. . and she told me it was her friend the "bitch" lol.. . tell you more about her next time. .

and this guy called samuel?. . this guys name has been popping around alot lately. . and i'm trying to make myself not feel jealous but i dooo. .. who is he?? thats whats going through my mind. . am i just over thinking this little things that don't really matter? or should it worse?..


Ahhhhh so yeah back to yesterday ended up staying awake to 2 am last nite so i didn't get up for work today until 8.25. . . i'm soo bad. . feel like my motivation for this job is starting to dwindle. . mite be an effect of my Hong Kong trip being 6 working days away. .